Florida

We're "whistling past the graveyard" here in the Sunshine State. We're one or two major hurricanes away from an economic disaster of biblical proportions. It's the insurance crisis. We have not priced in the "risk" of climate disasters in Florida, even as that risk has grown and the state has (over) developed to place even more property in harm's way. The size of the impending disaster has grown in two dimensions. More powerful hurricanes. More property to destroy.

But folks are beginning to notice.

Seriously, if you're even thinking of moving to Florida, don't. And if you live here and can get out, do so. We're kinda stuck. So we hold our breath every year, hoping this one won't be the "big one."

Not a great way to live. But I learned long ago that everything you have can be taken away from you.

And all we ever really have are moments to live, and each other.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 06:33 Friday, 22 March 2024

Early Matinée

Heading out this morning to see the Ghostbusters movie with my son and grandson. Productivity here has been non-existent this week. I'll be alone all of next week, so maybe things will improve.

"Productivity." Hah! Who am I kidding? I'm retired! I didn't get as much done as I'd hoped. Or, at least not the things I'd "planned" to get done.

Disk Utility reports I have 67GB of actual "free" space on my SSD this morning. That's still too little. I moved a bunch of images and movies from the internal SSD to an external one. Watched a time lapse movie I'd recorded at the Finger Lakes and noticed a dear wander through the frame for the first time. Of course, digging through old Photos libraries wasn't contemplated earlier this week either.

Something was up with Kottke's RSS feed. Hadn't noticed he was missing until dozens of posts showed up at once in the Blogs category. Thought I'd have a lot of interesting stuff to peruse, but it was just Kottke. He's great, don't get me wrong. But a little bit goes a long way and a huge backlog like that is just not feasible. "Mark all as read," and move on.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 06:06 Friday, 22 March 2024

Monopoly?

I'm not much of an Apple (the corporation) fan these days, but if Apple is such a monopoly, why is Safari, the default browser on the "monopoly" platform, unsupported on so many official web pages?

The Social Security Administration, DFAS, I'm sure there are others, all report that Safari is "unsupported." I refuse to install Google Chrome (and someone should investigate what Google does with our data in its data centers), so I have Firefox for those sites.

This morning, I was reading a news piece in NetNewsWire that has an embedded map created by, of course, Google, and there was a red banner across it that I was using an unsupported browser. (NNW was using Webkit, which is the foundation of Safari.)

Is Safari somehow deficient? I thought all browsers were now "standards compliant." Why is the default browser on a supposed "monopoly" platform "unsupported"?

Is this 1999?

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 05:59 Friday, 22 March 2024

Point Reyes

Shot on an E-PL7, sunbeams through clouds and fog against a forest covered hillside

I shot this on July 5, 2017 with my E-PL7, which I liked to travel with back then. This is a downsized version of a downsized version, I'd have to go into my old library and look for the original. I just searched for E-PL7 "favorites" in my Photos library and this is one of them.

Some years ago, I decided to try and save space in my Photos library by only adding 3MP versions, then increased that to 5MP, now I just do full-res and deal with the heartache of finite disk space.

But I liked this shot. Shot it with the 14-150mm super-zoom. Kind of a big lens for that body, but I had a cheap, detachable grip/L-plate that I could use when the 14-150 was on it.

Anyway. Cool camera. Looking forward to getting a black one. It'll take better pictures! 😜

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 13:30 Thursday, 21 March 2024

Revise and Extend

After posting the preceding, we went out to the garden and I planted the sugar snap peas that had still been rooting in their little pots. They were well rooted and now they're planted in the soil and watered. We'll get some rain this weekend, but I wanted to make sure they were happy after the intrusion.

In the interim, a reply appeared in my email and the sexy black E-PL7 is mine. I didn't think they'd go for the offer because it was more than 10% below the asking price. Based on the pics, it'll need a bit of a cleanup, but the screen is good. You never really know since some of these sellers don't take very good product shots.

But they knew how to call up the maintenance screen and show the number of shutter activations, and that's valuable information. U.S. seller, there seem to be more PENs available from Japan. I've had pretty good luck with Japanese sellers, but with the E-PL7 their prices tend toward the higher side on the good ones, and there were few black ones. Mostly silver and quite a few white.

Complete setup with the charger, flash, two batteries and one of those pleather half-cases and a snap-over case, which will be banished to the dark recesses of a drawer somewhere. It's also wearing a brown pleather neck strap and that likewise will disappear.

Yeah, I probably need an intervention.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 12:40 Thursday, 21 March 2024

Further to the Foregoing

This went up yesterday at the M43 forum at DPReview. I hadn't read it before posting the preceding post. Skip ahead to the about the 30 min mark for the discussion of compact cameras. There is some discussion of the Olympus PEN series, with one of the commentators mentioning that his friends, "below the level of enthusiasts," loved the PENs.

I think they're talking past each other a bit, as Jordan and Chris seem to be referring exclusively to the PEN F. What's interesting, to me, is Chris's criticism of the PEN F's body design, it echoes much of my own. Though I'll never sell it, thank you very much. I don't know the name of the third guy, but I think OM System could do well with a refreshed PEN.

In the mean time, I haven't heard back on my offer. But I happen to think that black E-PL7 is sexy.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 11:31 Thursday, 21 March 2024

Present Obsession

Front-facing product shot of the black Olympus PEN E-PL6

This is an Olympus PEN E-PL7. I have a silver one, it looks like this. The camera was released in August 2014, almost a decade ago. My first PEN was a black mini, E-PM1 in November 2011; and it was my introduction to micro four-thirds. My next M43 camera was the E-M5 in October 2012, followed by an E-PM2 in May 2013 and the E-M1 in November 2013.

I ordered the silver E-PL7 on March 25, 2015. A refurb that came with a silver 14-42mm/f3.5-5.6 zoom, not the pancake electronic zoom. It was my third PEN camera, but the first that really embraced the retro-rangefinder vibe. (The E-PM2 was white. While it had a rangefinder body style that evoked the retro look, the color was definitely more contemporary than "retro.") I can't recall if I ordered the silver one because that was all that was available, or because it appealed to me in terms of its retro-aesthetic.

I still have that camera. It's among the ones I've shot with the most, with nearly 10K shutter activations. Still works fine and looks great. No dings, scratches or screen issues.

I recall getting the E-PL7. Mitzi was at her place, recovering from her ankle surgery and I was staying there helping her out. I remember being surprised at how heavy the camera was, for being so small. The E-PM2 was considered "entry level," and it felt very light. As a "mid-tier" product, I thought the E-PL7 looked and felt quite premium, and I recall being really pleased with how it felt in my hand.

I don't recall the first time I actually noticed the black E-PL7. I know it was years after I'd bought the silver one. I do recall thinking at the time that it was a very smart looking camera, better even than the silver one.

I've had or have several of Olympus' PEN cameras. Of the ones that were explicitly evoking that "retro" look, they were all silver and black. My E-P5, PEN-F, E-PL7, E-PL8 and OM System E-P7 were or are all silver and black. (I still have the 7, as mentioned, as well as the PEN F and the E-P7.) I should add that I think the E-PL5/6 design (I have a red, sooo red, E-PL6) was transitional between the modern look of the earlier digital PENS (other than the flagship models), and the explicitly retro style of the E-PL7 and E-PL8.

I also have an E-PL10 kuro, which hedges on the retro vibe, tending back toward contemporary. I almost sold it to KEH, but do I like the appearance. I think it leans much more modern in its design, embracing clean lines and flat surfaces more than the E-PL7. I think that's partly to accommodate the built-in flash, which the E-PL7 lacks.

(The E-PL8 started the move toward a flatter, more squared-off body. Some people like the look of the E-PL8, I feel like it's neither fish nor fowl. Can't decide what it wants to be. The brown one is nice though. It was easy to sell the E-PL8.)

But, for reasons that I can't pretend to understand, I'm presently searching for a black E-PL7. I think it's just about the best looking (digital) PEN Olympus ever made. The PEN-F is a nice-looking camera, and fully embraces its retro chic. But it's kind of big and chunky, and a little busy with the twin control dials and a separate exposure compensation dial. I mean, if you like buttons and controls, and many if not most photographers do, the PEN-F is fully equipped. But I'm accustomed to dealing with just the one control dial of the E-PL series.

The other thing I like about the E-PL7 over the E-PL10 is that the 7 retains the accessory port beneath the hot shoe. I can plug in an electronic viewfinder on sunny days. And the E-PL7's TruPic VII image processor retains nearly as many customization settings as its OM-D siblings. The E-PL10 has the TruPic 8 image processor, with a much simplified user interface and far fewer options for control customization or saved settings.

My silver E-PL7 remains a favorite of mine, but I'd really like to have an all black one. I think the proportions of the black paint to the black leatherette are more pleasing than on the E-PL10. The black is a real black on the E-PL7, while the E-PL10 is more of a dark gunmetal gray color. I think the dark lettering looks nice on the E-PL10, but the small white letters against the black paint of the E-PL7 are more appealing to me.

Anyway, this kind of thing seizes me and I'm a bit transfixed until it passes. The black ones seem to be in short supply on the auction site, but I've put a bid in on a "best offer" listing. They're also kind of pricey, I think, for a nearly 10-year-old camera. We'll see how it goes. If the offer is rejected, maybe the feeling will pass.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 06:56 Thursday, 21 March 2024

An Aside

I'll turn the lights back on at Notes From the Underground ("It's darker here.") this weekend. But for now, a brief mention about sand and rich people's property built too close to the ocean.

The problems rich people face, and the county governments that rely on their property tax revenue, isn't one solely of sea level rise. We wouldn't be shoveling billions of dollars into the sea to "raise" the elevation of beaches.

The problem is beach erosion. Now, sea level rise can exacerbate that, and likely does to some extent.

But the real problem is wave action. Energy is the capacity to do work. Eroding sand (moving it from the beach here to someplace over there) involves work. Power is work per unit of time. Wave power, the stuff that's moving the sand, varies with the cube of the wave's height. (The energy is contained in a volume of water.)

Wave height varies with wind velocity, linearly. Most waves are wind-driven.

In a warming world, average wind velocities have been increasing. So if the average wind velocity increase 10%, then the average height of a wave also increases 10%; but the power of the average wave increases 33%! It does 33% more work (moving sand).

And there is evidence that average wind velocity is increasing. Good news for windmills. Not so great for rich people with houses built too close to the ocean.

But they're rich people, so our government(s) will spend our money to help protect their property, even though they were the dumbasses that bought property too close to the ocean. And they'll likely permit them to install artificial features along the shoreline to trap sand here, and keep it from being deposited over there. Where Nature needs it.

Now, maybe I shouldn't be "other-izing" rich people. It's not their fault they're successful. They're just people too. But aren't they the ones always going on about "personal responsibility."

Well, I didn't tell them to buy a house too close to the ocean!

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 06:01 Thursday, 21 March 2024

Returning to “Normal”

Mitzi leaves on Saturday, with her sister to return to New York. She's up and moving without difficulty, albeit with some anxiety about another fall.

I've just received the 4K UHD HDR Blu Ray (that's a lot of marketing-speak) edition of James Cameron's Aliens. Judy isn't much for sf or action movies. She's a retired therapist so her taste runs more toward complicated/dysfunctional people and the problems they create for themselves. I watch movies to forget about complicated/dysfunctional people and their problems!

I've got a "little" 32" LCD TV in my office that I use for video games, but it has a Blu Ray player connected to it. It also has Roku built-in, with the Apple TV app installed; so I could watch either disks or something from my Apple movie library, wearing headphones. It's not bad, but I did miss the 65" LG OLED, conscious as I am that its very existence is a consequence of the unsustainable capitalist/consumerist economy that is bringing about the collapse of this civilization. (See, I can be complicated and dysfunctional too.)

We all watched Zone of Interest on Tuesday night. I suspect that it was perhaps one of the most realistic portrayals of life outside the walls. I had to think about the odd, infra-red photography of the girl hiding apples. I thought it was a dream sequence or something. I finally decided it was to depict the contrast between the Germans and the native Poles when "out of sight," so to speak. But I'm not sure.

What I thought was very well done was the banality of it all. I had to look up Hoss, and the movie seemed to follow much of the events of his life in that period fairly closely.

I don't know if the grandmother ever actually stayed with them and quickly departed, but I think it perhaps illustrated the existence of the consciousness of guilt among the Germans.

I think Hannah Arendt took some heat for characterizing Eichmann as a "banal" figure. I seem to recall that she felt she was misunderstood, but that her critics felt that Eichmann was a monster and an outlier among human beings.

Despite the contrast between the grandmother and her daughter, I think there's not a huge gap between the two. If the grandmother had been young and eager to have the "good life," perhaps she would have found some accommodation with evil the way her daughter did. She certainly seemed to have no empathy for the woman whose curtains she coveted.

All of which is to say that the capacity for evil, for being monsters, exists in all of us and we indulge that capacity to greater or lesser degrees, depending on the circumstances.

As we see every day.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 05:02 Thursday, 21 March 2024

The Incredible Shrinking HD

"Free space" continues to shrink. I think it'll get better tomorrow when some big snapshots scroll off into the ether (or onto the Time Machine disk). For now, Finder assures me I have plenty of space, while Daisy Disk and Disk Utility report I only have 26.3GB of free space on a 1TB SSD.

My time would probably be best spent deleting images from Photos, as that's the major culprit.

The beat goes on.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 04:59 Thursday, 21 March 2024

Early Morning Moon

Closeup of waxing gibbous moon 87% illuminated

Woke at 0400, figured I might as well get up. Probably last clear morning for several days. This should be old hat by now, but the moon remains irresistible to me.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 04:23 Thursday, 21 March 2024

Loren Needs a Hand

Picking the best shot.

I went with the second, but they're all great.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 16:50 Wednesday, 20 March 2024

The Vanishing HD Space

It continues. Every time I run Daisy Disk, I have 5GB less storage. I'm down to 28.6GB. I started somewhere north of 40GB.

I haven't been taking notes. (Good use of Captain's Log!) But I believe the somewhat ambiguous "~free+purgeable" may be growing larger, as it's at 529GB right now.

I suspect that the vast majority of that space is my Photos library, where Photos or iCloud or some combination thereof can make some decisions on the size of thumbnails or what have you.

I just looked at the Time Machine snapshots in Disk Utility (from the View menu). I can't pretend to understand any of this, because it makes no sense, but in the last 8 hours Time Machine has created 11GB ("private size") of snapshots. The largest (3.59GB) a couple of hours ago when I deleted a bunch of email.

So as I've been deleting stuff, Time Machine has been adding stuff. 11GB would get me close to the figure I seem to recall when I started this adventure. But I don't understand why the available space would be going down. You'd think it'd remain the same. But maybe there's a lot of overhead that goes with the snapshots.

I'm not going to delete any of them right now. If I understand things correctly, those locally stored snapshots will be deleted (or written to the Time Machine HD) as new snapshots, presumably much smaller as I've stopped making huge changes, replace them.

I'll know more Friday afternoon. For now, my efforts to recover more storage will cease.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 14:43 Wednesday, 20 March 2024

A Place for My Stuff

Read this last night in NetNewsWire, and had a bit of a scare. I've been following Howard Oakley's series on how iCloud drive works, and I'm probably as confused as I ever was. DaisyDisk reports that I have 35GB "free" on my 1TB internal SSD. Storage in System Preferences reports that I've used 493GB of my 1TB internal storage. Finally, I just got through archiving and/or deleting several thousand emails (archived to an external SSD) and Daisy Disk says I have 5GB less available space than I had this morning when I started!

Yes, I've emptied the trash in Finder and in Mail.

Oy.

Broadband internet and huge storage has turned me into a digital packrat. But Apple's fancy, sleight-of-hand, now you see it, now you don't file system had just made it a clusterfuck.

Anyway, that's how I spent my morning. Archiving emails, deleting them, scanning the hard drive, and winding up with less "available" space than I started.

The peak of our civilization.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 13:21 Wednesday, 20 March 2024

Insomnia Moon

Waxing gibbous moon closeup

Got up to get a glass of water, saw the moonlight through the kitchen window. Had the water and went back to bed. Kept thinking about the moon. So here I am.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 03:25 Wednesday, 20 March 2024

Some Days Just Get Away From You

Got in my walk. Donated blood. Provided air support to Caitie on her flight back to LA. Scheduled the dermatology consult.

That's it.

Had a bunch of things in mind, but feel like I was running in molasses today.

Oh well...

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 16:38 Tuesday, 19 March 2024

Thomas Stafford

We have one fewer surviving Apollo astronauts. Stafford passed away yesterday at 93.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 10:05 Tuesday, 19 March 2024

American Association of Alliteration Aficionados

...Breaking...

Leslie Livesay appointed to serve under Laurie Leshin as first woman Deputy Director of JPL.

That is all.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 09:59 Tuesday, 19 March 2024

Retro Computing Enthusiast

Was watching some YouTube reports on the Orange One's problems paying his fines and saw something fascinating in Andrew Weissman's office background.

There's a iMac G4 back there with a pair of Apple Pro Speakers and an early iPod of some kind!

He's an Apple geek! (In the best sense.)

(This should start at 2m30s into the piece. If not, advance to that point and check it out.)

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 05:45 Tuesday, 19 March 2024

Caitie Call

My daughter is on her way over and I'm looking forward to some "hanging out" time. She'll probably give me a haircut too.

But it's always a pleasure seeing Caitie. She lives in LA now, but comes home every four to six weeks to serve clients here. Sometimes she'll be pretty booked and all we can do is maybe grab a bite to eat after I visit the salon for a haircut. She carved out an afternoon for me this time.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 12:44 Monday, 18 March 2024

Log Rolling

Didn't do much on Captain's Log yesterday. I'm going to try to learn about functions in Tinderbox. The idea would be to let a function do the heavy lifting on creating a new "Midwatch" container. It works fine locally as an edict, but the values of the sandbox variables remain part of the file and can begin to add to the size of the document. Probably not significant for something like this application, but it's a good excuse to learn how to use a function.

The Midwatch entry is still working, but I get a little error message from AppleScript even though everything worked. As it doesn't seem to be a problem, I'll defer investigation for another day.

Since I know I can create Calendar entries rather trivially from within the log, I did look at Reminders yesterday. The last time I used Reminders to any great extent was when we were selling my old place and moving to this one.

But I had two "lists" that had yellow "!" triangles. Searching suggested that meant there were devices logged into iCloud that wouldn't sync with those lists because of an OS difference. I can't imagine what that would be, but I found a Reddit post that said if you just renamed the lists, the triangles would go away. So that's what I did, and they did.

At some point I got Reminders to show all reminders, and imagine my surprise that there were thousands of them going back to 2008! I guess I used it more than I recall. Hundreds were some reference to "Ace" and I have no idea what that was about.

Deleted!

I can use LaunchBar to create Reminders from within the log. So far, I haven't had a genuine occasion to do so, but I may try a few just for practice today.

I have delayed my walk because of the possibility of rain, but it looks like it's just going to remain a possibility. Though if I do go out, I expect the heavens will open and at least the lawn will get watered without having to run the sprinklers.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 08:23 Monday, 18 March 2024

Variations On a Theme

Sometimes a train of thought will remain with me, even after I've supposedly "scratched that itch."

I somehow got the idea that perhaps I was being unfair to people who didn't understand the opportunity that service represents. I think Aaron Zahn wasn't yet 40 when he became CEO of JEA.

I was around 35 when I was XO of JOHN HANCOCK and did all those burials at sea. I was around 40 when I spoke for the HMC's (corpsman, chief petty officer) retirement.

Those were each "little epiphanies." It wasn't until much later, well into my 60s, when I began to understand and appreciate what those little epiphanies meant. What the value of meaning is.

The "meaning" of meaning was another little epiphany that occurred during my personal crisis, the end of my marriage and the end of my navy career. Trying to discern what that all "meant," standing amidst the wreckage, with the help of a therapist and a lot of reading made me understand that "meaning" is contingent. It doesn't exist as something apart from us. "Life" is meaningless. We must make meaning. Failure is the universe's way of trying to get your attention.

Nobody teaches you this as an adolescent or a young adult. I'm not sure a child could understand it. Maybe I'm wrong.

I had a correspondent this morning talk about their experience, in military service and in academic life.

There was little expression of appreciation for his military service, public or professional; and academic life exposes the contradiction between what we say we believe, and how we actually behave.

Of course, hypocrisy is nothing new and it's become seemingly endemic in public life. Everything is a facade. I think social media is another corrosive factor in that. (Please know that I understand there are exceptions. And while they may be many, or of wonderful merit or worth, they remain, in the main, exceptional. The overall effect is a net negative.)

And there is plenty of hypocrisy to go around, spanning the entire political or ideological spectrum.

It goes back to the "do the work" post. Posing is not working. But we want to appear attractive, to whatever tribe we wish to appeal to, so we signal and pose and manage to completely avoid "doing the work." (Who would have time?) We live in a media saturated culture, and that means appearance is reality. We are all the stars of our own little reality programs. Working on our "personal brand." Marketing ourselves to "viewers" or "only fans."

Meaning is conveyed in narrative, but meaning is forged in action in the field of value. What "matters" to us? Those are, or were, our "values." I feel like I should read Zen and The Art of Motorcycle Maintenance Again. Get reacquainted with Phaedrus. Lord knows the writing around this joint could use the help.

We have no institutions today whose role is convey those values. Ideally, I suppose it might be a "culture," but our culture is rotted through and through with the values of capitalism, consumerism and competition.

We have no institution to teach the meaning of "meaning," let alone the value of "values." I suppose it once was the church, but even they seem to have some difficulty keeping the thread. In this country, the "separation of church and state" has never been thinner. Even "church" leaders desire secular power; and let's not discuss "televangelists" who have the same emptiness that compels CEOs and politicians to seek ever more power and wealth and the people attracted to those who have it.

And all of this has to be considered against the backdrop of a large proportion of this society that has to spend most of its time just trying to meet the demands of day to day existence in a culture that seems to want to value compassion but can't find the wherewithal to exhibit it.

Politicians and corporate executives come from, mostly, privileged backgrounds. They have at least had the opportunity to reflect, to practice some introspection. But since competition seems to be one of our premiere "values," well, who has the time?

Anyway, I get it. But it's a pity.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 06:38 Monday, 18 March 2024

Change

[Originally published in Groundhog Day on September 5, 2005. There was a link to a WSJ opinion piece in the original. The link is now dead.]

There is much discussion underway in weblogs and in opinion pieces in the press regarding what changes the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina and the dismal performance of the leaders of our government may bring. This is a good thing.

I'm not sure what I have to add to that discussion.

One of my most persistent frustrations with writing and maintaining first Time's Shadow, and now, Groundhog Day, is that I am not a disciplined writer. When I am motivated to write, it is often because of some emotion, usually negative. As a result, I'm often writing against some idea, and I know people enjoy reading more positive things, or at least the occasional respite from a constant litany of complaint. I have made at least one change in my writing habits, and that has been to file many of my more vituperative posts in a topic that never gets published, which I call The Cooler. Sometimes a post will make it out of there after I edit it a bit, but usually they just stay there.

This is another instance where the throbbing vein in my temple seems to compel me to put down in photons my thoughts about a particularly bad idea. If I wait to calm down, when I try to write, it becomes more laborious and I become more pedantic. I begin to bore myself. So, I'm going to struggle here to try and keep this piece out of The Cooler, try to make something of a compelling argument, and try to stay interested while doing it.

The thing that's got me rather exercised right now is a link Doc Searls pointed to in the Wall Street Journal. I'll go back to beating up the idea that markets are conversations some other day, but right now I want to beat something else up.

I went to the piece in the WSJ because Doc called it "instructive lessons," and I wanted to see what those lessons were. In fact, there are no lessons there. Instead, there is the usual justification for the predictable response of the Journal, and that is that we should outsource or privatize the business of disaster preparedness. This is a knee-jerk, ideological response that will gain traction among those who always seem to believe that the private sector has better answers than the public one.

Well, I don't know about anyone else, but I've seen the private sector at work in things like Enron and Halliburton and Merck and Boeing and Microsoft and oh, I don't know, check with New York Attorney General Eliot Spitzer, he might have a couple more he could name. But I don't happen to think that the private sector has a monopoly on virtue. And bureaucracies exist in the private sector just as much as they do in the public one, which is just one of the many reasons why markets are not "conversations." There is no immunity to inertia through incentivization.

For a while, after 9/11, some pundits opined that the event would mark some watershed in American history, that it was the end of the Age of Irony. They were wrong. We do have a problem in this country, but it's not going to be solved by a particular economic "sector." There's no faith-based program to address this particular need. There's no catchy slogan, no social software solution, no pill, no gene therapy, no stem cell, no Supreme Court decision that's going to fix what's wrong with this country. But then, there doesn't need to be, because what's wrong can be fixed by you and I. Indeed, it will only be fixed, if you and I fix it.

I'm not an ideologue. I don't have any particular view of the world that I want to promote, other than maybe two ideas: First, know thyself. And second, you must become the change you wish to see in the world.

I'll tell you a sea story. Maybe two.

I'm pretty sure I've told this one before either here or in Time's Shadow, but that's in the nature of sea stories, they tend to be repeated.

When I was executive officer of USS JOHN HANCOCK (DD-981), I had to perform my first burial at sea. Up until that time, I don't recall having ever done one before. I certainly hadn't participated in the ceremony. That was about to change.

My job as the XO was to commit the decedent's cremains to the sea. Cremains are what are more commonly called "ashes." There's a burial at sea ceremony spelled out in some navy instruction or another, and the Captain presides over it. It was conducted on the fantail (that's the ass-end of the ship) and there were people there to render honors and there was a gun salute, and the whole thing was videotaped to provide a record for the family. So at the end of this rather somber, somewhat elaborate ceremony, I ceremoniously marched to the stern of the ship, removed the top of the container and poured the cremains over the side.

And the first time I did it, the wind swirling around the stern caught the ashes and blew most of them back up onto me in my dress blues and the deck of the ship.

I was not a happy guy.

It's pretty creepy having some guy's ashes all over your face and your uniform. But I remained "in character" until the end of the ceremony. Needless to say, I was glad it was over and I sincerely hoped I'd never have to do it again.

Except I did have to do it again. It came as a surprise, but shortly after we did the first one, we were tasked to do another one. Then they started coming in twos and threes. I worked with the Officer of the Deck to ensure we placed the ship in a favorable position with respect to the wind such that I wouldn't repeat my first experience, and while it was something of a pain in the ass, it wasn't a huge deal either. Just one more thing I had to do, so I just did it.

After each ceremony, we boxed up a national ensign, a chart showing the location of the burial, the videotape of the ceremony, the shell casings from the gun salute and a letter from the CO and sent them to the family. My navigator, who was also the admin officer, was in charge of that. I don't know how many we had done by this point, but Murphy's Law finally made its appearance and at some point we sent the wrong mementos to the wrong families. They were, understandably, rather upset and they conveyed their unhappiness back through the chain of command, whereupon I received direction that I would personally inspect the contents of each package before it left the ship and it would be sealed in my presence. Which, again, is no big deal, but it was a kind of pain in my ass.

And for a while, that's pretty much how I regarded doing burials at sea, as a pain in my ass.

Except I kept having to do them. I don't recall exactly how many I did, but it was more than thirty, maybe close to forty. And there was a rehearsal for each one, and of course there's each ceremony. Plus the packaging up of the mementos, which had me reading these guys' DD-214s or other discharge papers, and getting just the barest glimpse of what had been a life. So I began to think about this whole thing a lot. I found out that the reason why we were doing so many burials at sea was because many of the families of these guys couldn't afford a casket burial. Some of the "families" were really fairly distant relatives who were kind of stuck with the disposition of the body after their relative died. A few were really old guys, most were veterans of WW II or Korea, a few more recent. But the more I thought about these guys and the fact that, for many of them, there was nobody available to see to their end, to the final disposition of their earthly remains, the more I began to feel as though I had some sort of responsibility to them, to these guys I had never known and who never knew me.

Now, I don't know if any of these guys had ever given any thought to how they were going to be treated after they'd died. For all I know, they didn't care. Maybe some of them did. I don't know. I don't know if any of the families thought that the Navy would do for their relative what they couldn't do themselves in a manner that they would care about. About all I ever knew about these guys was their date of birth, date of death, period of service and an address to mail the package.

But they became something different to me. I don't know, I guess I thought that if it were me, I'd like to think the guy doing the thing would do it right. I can't really describe what the change was, other than it was no longer a pain in my ass. I won't say that I felt like it was a privilege, because, truthfully, I didn't want to do it. But I began to feel like I owed something to that box of ashes, which is about as irrational a thought as I've ever had, and I've had a few. So while it wasn't a privilege, I did see it as a duty, and one to be taken as seriously as any other important duty, perhaps more so in some respects.

I don't know how many burials I did after coming to that, less than half I'd say. But that experience was to kind of play a role later on when I began to understand something else I'd never really thought about before.

So here's another sea story, although this one doesn't strictly take place at sea. I was on shore duty at the time. And again, I'm sure I've probably told this story before too. Hopefully, the inconsistencies aren't too obvious or damning.

I was the XO of Fleet Training Center, and at the time of this story, I think I was the acting CO. I had two periods of three months' duration when I got to be the acting CO after my boss had retired without relief. Didn't mean a great deal different for me, I still got the same paycheck, and I didn't move my office; but I did have to preside over the various ceremonies in the capacity of the CO, rather than the XO, which means I was usually the guy doing all the fun stuff, like handing out the awards and stuff.

Anyway, one day, one of our sailors was getting ready to retire, and we usually have a fairly elaborate retirement ceremony for them. As the CO, I'd be the guy to present the award and all the plaques and letters and stuff a retiree normally gets. Usually there's a guest speaker, someone from the retiree's career or life who gives a speech about the retiree's career and tells a few embarrassing stories and what a great person they were and all that, as you might imagine.

So this sailor comes into my office one day and asks me to be her guest speaker. Now, I've never served with this individual before, and we've only been together at FTC for about a year, but she wants me to say a few words about her at her retirement. It floored me. I'd been to dozens of retirement ceremonies before, usually as a member of the audience, a few times as the master of ceremonies, but I'd never been asked to speak about someone before.

So that was a hard one. Of course I said I would, but I really had no idea what I would talk about. I pulled her personnel record and reviewed her career. I thought about what I knew about her from our time together at FTC. And then I got to thinking about this whole retirement ceremony thing.

I'd never really thought about it before. Of course, my own would be coming up a couple of years later, but I wasn't thinking much about that at the time either. If you'd asked me what I thought about them before then, I'd have told you they were just another one of those things I had to do as a part of my job.

When I began to think about it, one of the first things that occurred to me was the burials at sea and what that ceremony ultimately "meant." And I went on to think about the nature of ceremonies and why we went to the trouble of having them. To be honest, I had never thought much about it before. They were always just a part of Navy life. You don't have to think about what it means, you just have to show up. But somehow, when you have some part to play in it, you tend to think about what it means, or what it is supposed to mean.

I began to think about the word honor, because we did these things, supposedly, to honor, the person who was retiring. And so I wondered what that meant, because I had never really thought about that before either. So I did what I often do, I consulted a dictionary. Honor, the verb, means to regard with great respect, or to fulfill an obligation, or keep an agreement. It was the second sense of the verb that I focused on, perhaps because of my experience with the burials at sea. I had, without really thinking about it, been acting to fulfill an obligation to those dead veterans, and I thought about what that meant to me.

And I thought about the retiree, who was, most assuredly, still alive at her ceremony. What was my obligation to her? What was my role? Why was I going to be up there in front of the rest of our command? And from those questions, I found answers that eventually turned into my speech for her. It must have been a pretty good speech, because afterward, a lot of people came up to me to talk about it and I ended up getting a lot more requests to speak at retirement ceremonies.

And that's probably enough sea stories.

What follows isn't that speech, but it's based on what I learned when I was thinking about it. There is something that keeps a group of people together that is more than just a paycheck. We "honor" individuals within our group as a way of renewing and strengthening that thing that keeps us together. It's about faith, which is a word that is much abused of late. It's about keeping faith with one another, and the really important things we believe, even if we don't think about them much. To honor someone is to keep faith with them. Honor, the noun, is the quality of having kept faith with one's fellows.

Leadership is the act of renewing and strengthening that faith. Leadership is embodying that faith and living it, having it be a part of one's life, recognizing that each of us is a part of something greater than ourselves, and that's not our company or our corporation.

I couldn't be incentivized to care about the people whose ashes I consigned to the sea's embrace. I got the same paycheck whether I cared about them or not. I couldn't be incentivized to talk about things like faith and keeping that faith with one another. I could have stood up there and told a few jokes, highlighted the achievements of my retiree's career and gotten away from that podium without ever breaking a sweat.

It was easy, when we would be working hard training at sea, to understand why we were working so hard. If we didn't work hard during a main space fire drill, we knew many of our shipmates might die, and we might lose the ship. There's no place to run in a fire at sea. We knew when we were working hard during general quarters drills why we were working so hard, because otherwise shipmates, both our own and those on other ships, might die if we didn't get the job done. The fear of death is a pretty good incentive. But there are a million things we do that are inconvenient, many that are hard, that have nothing to do, directly, with staying alive. But they have everything to do with being a part of something larger than ourselves. We lose sight of those things too often. Indeed, for myself, I never had sight of them until I was put into the middle of them and had to wonder why I was doing this? Who cares about a box of ashes of some stranger? Certainly, he was beyond caring.

Being in the Navy, or any branch of the military, is a form of public service. Part of what some people call the public sector. Something we've lost sight of is the meaning and the value of public service. Like our infatuation with our clever technologies, we've become enamored with the many supposed virtues of the marketplace, and its rewards for efficiency. But where is there room in the marketplace for keeping faith with one another? Faith isn't a commodity that can be bought or sold. If there is a place, how does it compare in priority with things like maximizing shareholder value, or the bottom line? Who is the competition when it comes to keeping faith with one another?

What happened in the failures of government in the aftermath of Hurricane Katrina was not something intrinsic to the nature of bureaucracies or the public sector. What happened was a failure of leadership, a failure to renew and strengthen the shared faith that makes each of us a part of something larger, and hopefully, better than we are as individuals. What happened was a failure of leadership to keep faith with us.

That failure in leadership was not an accident. It was the result of too many years of too much neglect of the value of public service. For too many years, for too many people, public service has become just a means of advancing oneself in the private sector. People with something to gain, people with a profit motive, selfish, cynical people, have blurred the ideas of authority, responsibility, and accountability. All toward the end of abusing their authority to promote themselves while neglecting or ignoring their responsibilities, oblivious to the shared faith that has become the tattered and fraying social fabric that binds us together.

That failure in leadership was not an accident. It was the product of a political system that has embraced the ways and the methods of the marketplace to manipulate people, to command their attention or distract it. To craft clever, meaningless messages intended to obscure more than to illuminate. To appeal to fear rather than courage. To value appearance over substance. A marketplace in which honesty and integrity are often perceived as impediments to a healthy bottom line.

That failure in leadership was not an accident. It was a result of each of us failing to keep faith with each other. Thomas Jefferson is supposed to have said that people usually get the kind of government they deserve. I guess that's true, even if it is essentially blaming the victim; it often seems like most of our wounds, individual and collective, are self-inflicted. The question is, what are we going to do about it?

I've seen a lot of people calling for the sacking of Michael Brown, a political appointee and someone who is patently not qualified for the job, let alone someone who's ever had to exercise leadership. I'm certainly not opposed to sacking Brown. But sacking Brown isn't enough, and if we settle for that, it serves the interests of those whose failures were, in many ways, even greater. At the very least, we ought to demand of our president that he ask for the resignation of Secretary Chertoff.

But even more, somewhere out of all this hot air must come a discussion, an argument, (not a "conversation") about the value of public service, the role of leadership, an examination of authority, responsibility, and accountability. We need to take a close look at that "social fabric" that supposedly binds us as a nation. Is it nothing more than a blind faith in the "invisible hand" of the marketplace? How can what is presumably "the best of us," so grievously fail "the least of us?" What do we expect from our leaders in the way of leadership, at all levels of government? And don't look to our so-called "leaders" to lead this discussion.

I've seen a lot of folks wondering what "we" can do to address this situation, and, predictably, people are focusing on technological solutions, when what we have is not a fundamentally technological problem. It's something far less physical. It's a crisis of faith, it's a kind of identity crisis about who we are as a people and what we say we believe. Because there's a disconnect, an enormous chasm, between what we say we believe and how we manifest that belief in the leadership we choose and the other choices we make. So if you want to try to begin to "solve" this problem, I'd say your time would be better spent there than in advocating a particular technology. I will note that many of those who do will be doing so while angling for some competitive advantage in the marketplace.

I'd like to say I'm optimistic, or that I'm hopeful this will be the watershed event many thought 9/11 was. I'm afraid I'm not. I look back at the events that made many of these values meaningful to me, and maybe I'm just a slow learner, but I don't see very many people having similar kinds of experiences. I don't know how to articulate that meaning in a compelling way, to make it meaningful for others. I don't know how to resolve the incongruity between a culture that believes life was created by a creator, but which embraces a Darwinian "survival of the fittest" view of its fellow creatures. I don't know how to check the embrace of "self interest" over "public interest." I'm not a marketer, and I don't know how to sell the truth, so I just try to tell it. I don't know if I have enough faith for all that.

I don't know if any of us does.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 15:27 Sunday, 17 March 2024

Philosophy of Command

It is in the way of mystery, how this world works. In my experience anyway. Parts of it.

We just had a trial conclude here on Friday and the former CEO of JEA, Aaron Zahn, was convicted of conspiracy and wire fraud in an effort to enrich himself to the tune of tens of millions of dollars from the sale of JEA to FPL. JEA is among the largest publicly owned utilities in the country.

I'm a member of the United States Naval Institute, I get their emails and from time to time the title of a piece catches my eye, as this one did. I wasn't enamored with it overall after reading it, but I genuinely do agree with the premise.

And it made me think about the "philosophy" of other areas of service, particularly in the context of the JEA debacle. What was the "philosophy" of the politician who put Zahn on the board, which then chose Zahn to replace the departing CEO?

Why do people enter politics? Is it public service, or personal ambition? Is it being attracted to the trappings of power? Is it the desire for personal advancement? Maybe it's just a job.

I think that many people in public service positions don't understand the value of service or the opportunity it presents. They don't understand the relationship between the responsibility that goes with the office or the position, and the public they notionally serve.

On this morning's walk, I thought I'd blog about this; but one thing led to another, breakfast, call Mom, and next thing you know it's the Tinderbox meetup. Great session with Dr. Beck Tench. We had a little back and forth toward the end, and she related the story about how she came to change her feelings about her wedding ceremony.

That brought to mind my experience with navy retirement ceremonies, so I offered a little sea story.

In a moment I'll post something I wrote late in the night on September 5, 2005, in the midst of the Hurricane Katrina debacle. The sea story will be in there, but you've probably heard it before.

I found that post looking for something shorter. It's terribly long for 2024, nearly 4K words! So, I'll understand if you don't read it.

But it speaks to everything I was going to blog about, prompted by the JEA trial and an article in Proceedings.

I'm not especially proud of that piece. It's not great writing. But I believe every word of it, nearly 19 years later.

It is to our everlasting regret that we have a blinkered view of who we are in the world. To the nature of our relationships to one another. To the duty of care we owe to one another, to the responsibilities placed in us.

We are born. One day we die. Everything that matters happens in between. How it matters, why it matters, these are questions we should be asking ourselves, if we had the time. If we had the awareness that the answers might mean something.

You can get pretty far in life without ever asking those questions. And it seems like most people do. You can also go pretty far astray by never asking those questions. Either way, at some point you may find it's too late, and you didn't take advantage of the opportunities the questions might have revealed.

We're all in this together. All we ever really have are each other. Life is meaningless. We bring meaning to life. That's the opportunity we have. To make meaning.

Make meaning, or make money? Power, position, privilege? Empty. People that have all that are still empty. Still looking for something to fill the aching void. More power. More money. More privilege.

Faith and fear are the "harmony of binding opposites." Yin and yang. Every breath is an act of faith. Love is faith in action. Courage is love in action. Love one another. Keep faith with each other.

Do your best, and the rest isn't up to you. What is your best?

I guess pulling off a multi-million dollar scam was it for Aaron Zahn.

He'll have some time in a Club Fed to reconsider.

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 13:40 Sunday, 17 March 2024

Command Line

Today's task in Captain's Log was to get the "run command" action working. Mark Anderson, author of A Tinderbox Reference, recommends getting the command line input working in the terminal first.

I have an app called Midwatch Entry in the Applications folder, which I know works if I launch it. It finds the correct Midwatch entry in the log, and enters the next 3 days' events in the $Text of the note.

I asked ChatGPT what terminal command I would use to launch it, and it came back with, open -a "Midwatch Entry".

Heeding Mr. Anderson, I opened Terminal and entered that text verbatim (after deleting the previous Midwatch entry and allowing a new one to be created by today's container) into the command line.

Voila! The desired result.

So on to the log...

To make a long, boring story short. I renamed the app MidwatchEntry, deleting the space, and then the action code runCommand("open -a MidwatchEntry"); worked like a champ.

Quotation vexation ensues with that space in there. Command line requires the quotes because of the space. Tinderbox requires quotes in the action code. Tried "escaping" quotes, but wasn't holding my tongue right or something.

The "Delete the friggin' space!" light illuminated, and there was much rejoicing.

I'm not sure I learned much, but I have some confidence that if I keep screwing around with this stuff I might learn something through osmosis.

I have to clean up after myself and add a line to disable the edict after it runs because it only has to run once. I don't know if there's an advantage to using a $Rule over an $Edict, they mostly do the same things, just at different frequencies. Edicts are much more infrequent. But I don't want it updating itself once it's done its thing.

Pressing on...

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Originally posted at Nice Marmot 13:43 Saturday, 16 March 2024